|the best part of believe is the lie...
||[Dec. 14th, 2005|10:42 am]
|||||Fat Lip-Sum 41||]|
So I'm alone at emma's now. And you ask, wha? I drove up here yesterday to visit and she's off to school, Jack's at daycare and her mom is at work. I guess I should talk about some other stuff first though. Day before yesterday, I hung out with Lil at the Dot. It was a good time. We drank a bunch of hot chocolate cuz it's friggen cold, and then we just sat around catching up. I missed the kid, glad she's back. After we got done, I went home and crashed. I thought about a lot of stuff before I went to sleep and I think that unfortunately led to my downfall.
I decided to talk to Alex about a lot of stuff that I had been feeling in regards to our relationship. Long story short, we broke up... We decided to be friends and she's still living with me cuz after all, she is my partner in crime and my place is cheaper than any other place she could find. In case anyone cares, I'm alright.
OK so that's a lie. I'm not ok. I hate this. I keep fucking up relationships in some way. I thought this one was awesome, we have so much in common. Maybe too much I guess. I dunno. I just hate it. I almost said those 3 little words...
So after that, I made myself look relatively presentable and drove to emma's. We had an awesome time hanging out, she cheered me up so much. We talked about all kinds of stuff and exchanged presents. I gave her, her original gift of a bracelet and she gave me some awesome CDs. There was some tickle fighting as well. She knows I'm cooler...lol. Anyhow, I kinda ended up giving her a car that I recently bought, well the keys at least. I know I'm crazy, but now she's forced to come visit me at least once heh.
Yeah so the car was originally for alex and a few of my friends know that, but yeah I couldn't give it to her now. I just...couldn't. Don't get me wrong, I got other stuff for her so it's not like I'm totally ignoring her or something. But I couldn't giver her the car.
Em woke me up excessively early this morning, thanks by the way, grr. And then she went off to school. Her mom had made breakfast which was cool. I gave em's family their presents. I got her mom a cool picture frame which she seemed to like, and I got Jack a huge GI Joe set which he became totally fascinated with. Anyhow, it's just me for a few more hours. So I need to find something to do, maybe more sleep hehe.